Bottle feeding a breast fed baby
Tuesday was our first full day at our holiday resort here in Spain and after two days of travelling and four days trying, Little Man has finally started drinking formula.
Up until Friday he was exclusively breastfed, I hadn’t even pumped out a bottle for a girls night out (that’s not to say I haven’t had one but I haven’t gone crazy on the booze front; frankly more because I’m a lightweight these days than for any other reason). But that all changed when a supposed yeast infection (sorry tmi) last week became a misdiognosed womb infection called Pelvic Inflammatory Disease (PID).
Now I’m on some lovely extra strength drugs that, since I’m almost over the side effects of insomnia, headaches and dizziness, have made me feel a SHED load better. But unfortunately they aren’t considered safe for breastfed babies like Little Man so our six and a half month old boob monster has had a bit of a shock.
Day one he just turned away, perhaps thinking I was joking; day two consisted of disbelief and confusion; day three anger, distress and pitiful wailing but he reluctantly took some gulps and today he drank almost a full 7 ounces before teatime. Thankfully he’s on three meals a day and that’s clearly helped to tide him over but its amazing what hunger can do.
While I’m relieved that he’s finally taking sustenance it also fills me with remorse and dread. Remorse that I’ve pushed him to desperation. Dread that he won’t come back.
For when this two week holiday is over, the drugs are finished, the Sun Sense cream is empty and the Lenovo tablet says adios to Spanish wifi, I want to go back to breastfeeding my baby for as long as he wants to.
What if he doesn’t want to?
I’m pumping three times a day to try and keep my milk supply up but that’s so hard to do when you’re travelling half way across Europe and after one uncomfortable engorgement I’ve already noticed my supply dropping dramatically.
What if he wants to and I can’t?
For now there is nothing I can do but keep pumping and hope for the best. I have enough formula to tandom feed if I have to, mixing bottle feeds with as much breastfeeding as I’m able to until my supply catches up. At worst he’ll have had just over six months breastmilk and a great start.
Lo siento mi hermoso bebe.